So, It is officially a new year. Its 2010. I don't know about most of you, but 2009 was a crazy year for me... The very beginning was AMAZING! Then around June it got really horrible... then it got worse... and now... Heh, now it is getting better... *shrugs* I guess that's life. Through out the years you find out who is worth your time and who isn't. Some of the most important people in your life can be just the most amazing people, then one day they just totally screw you! This year I have been down graded to an ultimate low, but I've found a way to pick myself up again. I could have never found the strength to pick myself up without a few of my closest friends, and I am thankful for them every minute of my life! I guess I've found the friends I'm going to keep. Lol.

This year I've had moments where I have been the happiest person ever... Then I've had my moments where I'm sad for no reason... I've also been so depressed I haven't wanted to get out of bed or breathe... All of 2009 has been so incredibly crazy! 2009 holds some of my most precious moments and some of my worse moments ever... In a way I found it hard to leave 2009, but in a way I'm also relieved to be moving froward into a new year... a fresh start. Ya know? Sometimes I wish that every time a new year begun, I would become a totally different person... so it really would be a fresh start... Since I'm the same old me, my past follows me around like a lost puppy! And since I can't become a totally different person each year, on new years eve I sit and think about everything that happened throughout the year and I think of how I can better myself for the next year. Once I decide how I can better myself, I do it. So for me, I sorta do get my fresh start.

Right now my emotions are so mixed and I'm torn between being sad for leaving the previous year and being excited for the new year that has begun... So I figure I could write a blog and get all of my thoughts out, though no one will really read this blog because no one gets on this site anymore... ... But... I'm really hoping that 2010 will be a much better year for me... and for everyone else who wants a better turnout for this year... I guess I'm a bit afraid of whats ahead of me... and I'm saddened by my past... and I'm confused in my present... *shrugs* what can I do? ...

Haha, There are so many things I wanted to say in this blog, but I can not for the life of me remember any more!! Lol. Probably cause its like almost 5:30ish and I'm exhausted! So I guess I will end this blog and hope someone reads it... Lol.

Happy 2010 everyone!

-Wasted-