What it means to Be OCD

What it means to be obsessive compulsive
It's like your mind is consumed,
By thoughts uninvited,
Impolite guest coming in without knocking.
Confusing...intrusion...panic..anxiety...
A struggle to survive in your own head.
It causes a panic, fright, sometimes digging out the darkest fears,
The strangest habits and create undesirable patterns
What you think is not always what you believe
What you believe is not always followed in your thoughts.
Uncontrolled, but controlled.
A challenge to the mental state...
A wave crashing in by surprise,
Sometimes little by little,
Sometimes it builds,
And it becomes too much.
Theses thoughts, actions follow a pattern.
Interrupting lives or causing distress...
Instead of a multi wave of panic.
It's all one individual...
From inside to the outside...
Anxiety weaves...
Nothing makes since for a while...
Rational is irrational....
Irrational is almost rational...
OCD.